“My Brain is Clogged Up”: Staff of Lagos Microfinance Bank Leaves Note Before Committing Suicide.
A quiet street in the Ogba area of Lagos has been shaken by a tragedy that has left family, friends, and coworkers searching for answers. A young woman, identified only as Bola, has reportedly taken her own life by drinking a poisonous substance commonly known as Sniper.
But it is not just her passing that has left people heartbroken. It is the piece of paper she left behind.
Bola was said to be a staff member of Wado Credit & Co, a microfinance bank in the area. Those who knew her described her as someone who kept to herself and worked hard. In the days leading up to the incident, it is believed she had been dealing with a heavy load of personal worries and money problems. However, no one expected the news that would come next.
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According to sources close to the community, Bola left a handwritten note before she died. The message, written in a mix of English and Pidgin, gives a rare and painful look into the mind of someone who felt they had run out of options.
The note read:
“Nothing is working in my life, my figures are low, my brain is clogged up, the economy is getting harder, my decisions are wrong, my mind is messed up, the future doesn’t seem bright at all, I see extreme hardship, I can’t bear the pain anymore. I am sorry chief, I’m sorry Dad, I’m sorry Oluwaseun, Adeola, Bolaji, Oluwafemi, Adewale, Oluwatobi. Dear lord have mercy on me!”
The words paint a clear picture of someone who felt stuck. She mentioned “low figures,” which many believe refers to her work targets or personal finances, and a feeling that her mind was no longer working the way it should. She also pointed at the state of the economy, suggesting that the rising cost of living and general hardship played a part in her despair.
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The news has sent shockwaves through the Ogba community and her workplace. Colleagues who saw her just days ago are struggling to understand how someone could be smiling on the outside but carrying so much pain inside.
The handwritten message also included a list of names—people she felt she needed to apologize to. Among them were her father, someone she called “chief” (likely her boss or a senior figure), and several others. The fact that she took the time to write these names down shows that even in her final moments, she was thinking of the people she was leaving behind.
This sad event has once again brought up the conversation around mental health in Nigeria. For a long time, many people have suffered in silence, feeling that they cannot speak up about their struggles. The pressure to provide, the fear of failure, and the hard economic times can weigh heavily on a person, especially when they feel alone.
Experts continue to advise that anyone going through emotional pain should try to talk to someone. It could be a friend, a family member, or a trained counselor. Situations like this show that the pain someone is feeling inside is not always visible to the people around them.
If you are reading this and feeling hopeless, or if you know someone who is acting differently or talking about being a burden, please reach out. Help is available. No situation is permanent, and there are people who care.
If you or someone you know is going through emotional distress, please contact a trusted friend, family member, or a mental health professional. You do not have to face it alone.
“My Brain is Clogged Up”: Staff of Lagos Microfinance Bank Leaves Note Before Committing Suicide.
